I have walked away from my social media accounts for the past couple of months. Honestly, my initial decision to walk away was not prompted by some strong desire to regroup and reflect. In fact, I felt forced to walk away.
So, I was angry and bitter for a couple of weeks after deactivating my Facebook and Instagram accounts. I began questioning my actual growth as a woman and all of the feminist ideals I claimed to embrace. How could I encourage women to “do you” when I had compromised, or so I thought, by walking away from something important to me? Once I moved past my anger and blame, I began to ponder my decision to walk away. What I realized was that I was using his concerns as an excuse for me to take a much-needed break. In a good place and able to delve a little deeper into my feelings, I concluded that I was addicted to social media, and I had become tired of its grip on me. With that realization and acceptance, I comfortably fell into my existence sans social media.
Please don’t tell him :-), but, honestly, my life sans social media has been much richer.
I now have time to focus on things I truly missed but never seemed to be able to find time to do when my focus was on becoming the next social media sensation. I have spent afternoons curled up in the bed, catching up on books that I have been meaning to read so that I could immerse myself in a world that someone else has created. I have found time to work on projects in my home so that my children and I can have a cozy atmosphere to rest and regroup from daily challenges. When I am out and about, I am able to take in and appreciate my surroundings much more since I am in the moment and not focused on capturing the moment. Because I am no longer looking for excuses to take a break and check my statuses, my focus is much better. But, I must say, the most significant gift of my break up with social media is that I am present and in the moment with the people near and dear to me. Quality time no longer includes sitting on the couch checking my “likes” and “comments” with the television on as everyone talks around me. I listen and am engaged even though they drive me completely “bonkers” sometimes.
Of course, I struggle with the thought of my work losing relevance now that I am not constantly pushing it because the reality is social media is very much a part of how our society communicates.
With that in mind, I have begun to try to figure out how to strike a balance. Until I find that balance, I find comfort in the fact that the gift of time also allows me to spend time writing, the thing that truly brings me joy. If I continue to write and people continue enjoying what I write, everything will be just fine.