Are You Okay??

(TRUTH BE TOLD)

Everyone has their own story

Can you hear silent cries, do they have any validity, or are they wasted emotions?

I would dare to say there aren’t any emotions in my opinion that should be seen as wasted

Though we tend not to express oneself in the same manner, the release is still necessary

I’ve learned that the more one holds things in the more they tend to fall into this sense of solidarity

The sound of rain pouring takes me to a place of feeling free in a sense

The freedom to cry and not be concerned in the moment of keeping it all together in front of children, coworkers, the person looking back in the mirror at you

The freedom to be vulnerable in a time where it feels you’re judged if you cry out for help

Yes, a silent cry is still heard

What does it really mean when asked this question, ARE YOU OKAY?

Exactly what are the responses you are expecting me to give?

No, I’m not okay because,

  1. I feel overwhelmed with everything that’s in front of me right now
  2.  I need to get away before my mind takes me to a place I haven’t ventured upon in a long time
  3.  I feel the need to binge and then throw up repeatedly
  4.  I feel the need to isolate myself from everyone, including myself (as if that were possible)
  5. There are some tough decisions I need to make that scares me, and I’m not sure where to start.
  6.  How do I deal with what’s going on inside myself once and for all?

AND THE LIST GOES ON AND ON…………………. Tell me what would your response be, how would you encourage this person not to give up, would you be judgmental, listen and give no response or wish to yourself why did you even bother to ask.

HOW TRANSPARENT ARE YOU WILLING TO BE????????

 Transparency is intentionally baring your soul to the world by showing your true self to others. Most people hide their essence in fear of rejection, lack of self-confidence, broken hearted, or lack of fulfillment in life; there are many reasons a person will hold back who they are.

Author: Monica Holley

My name is, Monica M. Holley I’m 49 yrs old, and I work for Bertie Co. DSS as an Income Maintenance Casework, IMC II. I am a proud mom of 4 children, (1 son and 3 daughters), and I AM A SURVIVOR. A SURVIVOR of depression, suicidal attempts, emotional/physical anxiety, and miscarriage. There are days it feels as if I’m going backwards, nonetheless, I pray/seek God for strength and push forward. I enjoy writing poetry, journaling, brainstorming ideas for tee shirts, stationary, books, etc., decorating and creating my own unique outfits. It will take time but I’m slowly learning who I am. Without a doubt I know that I AM UNIKLY PURPSD. My favorite bible verse is Proverbs 3:5-6 TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL YOUR HEART,AND LEAN NOT ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING; IN ALL YOUR WAYS ACKNOWLEDGE HIM, AND HE SHALL DIRECT YOUR PATHS. No matter how things look or how I’m feeling, I choose to lean on God because I have to. He is my lifeline and without him I know I would be dead or in a mental facility.

2 thoughts

  1. Are you okay? This question initiates an exchange between individuals that can be quick, shallow and dismissive or it can be a conversation with saving grace. This piece has great depth and makes me cognizant of the importance of the question- Are you okay? If asked, be prepared to look closely and listen for what is said and unsaid. Be ready to be completely there for the person who responds. We have to be ready to support each other, especially during these unsettling times. We all are hurting, but some are hurting more deeply than we realize. Yes, we are our brother’s/sister’s keeper.

  2. Amen to the the Shy Poet……. Hi Monica…. Glad you are who you are……

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